i cant stand the way im so undisciplined. i hate it. i need to stop that lazy habits of mine. grrrr. 4hours of studying didnt feel the least bit productive although i finished all my econs im still not confident cos this whole system is so new and foreign to me. oh well. just have to keep revising.

i feel so honourable for doing what im doing now. matters which seemed so important just awhile ago have become trival stuff which dont matter to me anymore. i have no particular direction in life at the moment. the next thing im looking forward to doesnt seem to be approaching as soon as i want it too. things that i want to happen are not happening. so for now im just, waiting. everything important seems to be taken away from me gradually but im still happy. i dont know why. ok maybe im not happy but im not all upset and depressed. i guess thats good.

friends are my lifeline.

friends who are there whenever i need them, friends who im not super close to but still make an impact in my life, friends who i dont really talk much to but still hold a special place in my heart, friends who i hate yet love at the same time, friends who always seem to be able to make me smile no matter what the circumstances are, friends who i just feel happy after i talk to, friends who i just got to know but the circle of trust thats present somehow makes it feel like ive known them for my whole life, friends who come to my resue when they know im upset and just about to die, friends who help me sort my problems out, friends who make me angry, friends who teach me the proper use of english terms, friends who i can tell all my secrets to and not feel vunerable, friends who make me feel important, friends who always seem to have problems for me to solve and friends who insult me all the time.

i'm truly grateful for each and everyone one of you. go figure where you fit in (:

this is a very unlike-sarah entry but i just felt like it. so yeaa.

now now who's anon. and how'd you know that girl is called charmaine? haha what if i told you she isnt? OUT WITH IT! WHO ARE YOU? haha.

went to school for abit today to get the past year papers. the library is in a mess. ok not the whole library but the past-year-paper section. i cannot find anything. haha im making ngee ann sound so lousy. but anyway managed to get the stuff i needed after quite a long while.

put ben and jerry's phishfood, chocolatefudgebrownie ice cream, coco crunch and peanut better with three girls. what do you get? haha. sinful sinful eating habits we have. these cravings ought to be curbed.

hey erica, i dont think our study marathon will materialise today cos im too distracted. but its awwwright. haha. i'm excited. i cant wait for tomorrow. finally getting down to REAL study - at the end of the study week. tenpoints sarah. but hey, its not just me! i have marlon bert mike and gab along with me so it doesnt feel so bad. haha. all slaves to dota. sigh. haha. i feel so lazy. grrrr.

pk pk pk pk PK chant pk pk pk pk

i dont believe ive been waking up so early when this is supposed to be a "holiday" week. went to school today to swim and i swear the ngee ann pool has algae growing in it or something. its all slimey and its gives the soapy after effect feeling YUCKS. they seriously need to do something about it. EWE.

managed to do some stats in the libarary till some annoying guys came along and started watching happy tree friends and started laughing madly. like HELLO its the library. who the hell watches happy tree friends in the library. happy tree friends is sadistic anyway.

went hair dye shopping with erica and denise who were very happy with their purchases at my expense. you both owe me! haha. is there rice in the yoshinoya set meal denise? HAHA. that has got to be the joke of the year.

yeaaa. mmm.x and randy, dont be depressed. tomorrow will be a better day yes? cheer up wont you.

oh it just started raining here*squeaks

waiting for the men's 200free to start. its gonna be exciting! i want phelps to win. ian thorpe doesnt appeal as much as before. he looked .. shaggy? haha.

i've got nothing much to say cos i didnt really do anything today.



this is my blogging buddy. isnt he - ohsoadorable (: haha.

okok the race is starting. lates!

oh yeah before i forget, thanks randy.

hey gab, who's the gay one? you and marlon are the gays of all gays. gaylords. haha but although you're gay, i love you anywayyy. huggs*

ok public apology time to youknowwhoyouare. dear youknowwhoyouare, (haha it sounds so formal but i dont know how else to start it) i'm really sorry. really really sorry. i think i know it was my fault. but thats not the point. the point is, im sorry :\ yup it was all just a misunderstanding.

thanks mmm.x, you almost always sort my thoughts out for me.

anyway, this week's study week so that means no school. but we're supposed to be studying cos there's common tests the following week. BUT i dont forsee that happening. i dont think there's such a thing as studying before hand cos i'll always forget whatever i studied. so yeah no point. oh well. maybe its just me. haha.

didnt do anything productive today. just went to church whichwas pretty much the highlight of the day. the seah's left today. boohoo. im gonna miss russ charme and darryl muchhh. no more mass buddy and no more of darryl showing me his tricks. but its all good cos it gives me a reason to go to hk to visit them and shop at the same time! haha. on a lighter note, i made a new friend. the world really is very small. and he's gonna be my neighbour (kinda) soon! (: so exciting!

im starting to feel happy again. not so tied down and bothered by everything. but i know, that things will never be the same again - for now at least. i think i shouldnt think so much. i'm feeling better now. and that's that. i'd like to leave it that way.

things haven't been very peachy.

i don’t really know what’s going on.

it seems to have an uncanny resemblance to what's happened before. everything i do just brings temporal happiness. at the end of the day its back to square one. but im grateful for friends who assures me that its ALL-right although it doesn’t really seem the case.
thanks marlon. muchlove*

don't you even care at all?
i miss you //
what’s happening? pray tell.

maybe, i brought it upon myself. well done.