Saturday, August 28, 2004
grrrr. why must you always do this to me.
why must you always leave me feeling this way.
maybe if you hadn't said what you said,
maybe if you hadn't sounded so distant and indifferent,
maybe you should realise the rest dont matter to me as much as you do,
maybe i should devoid myself of all feeling and emotion,
maybe i shouldnt be feeling this way.
maybe i think too much.
maybe its just me .
maybe.
thanks for listening, all the time.
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
grrrrr. econs wasnt all that easy but i thinkkkk it should be fine. its the type of paper that you dont wanna compare answers cos you thinkkk you're right but you're not fully confident so you might be wrong. haha yeah.
anyway im so happy that david yeo got was one of the three that got in. haha i dont know why. but he seems to appeal to me. the other two who got in were good too but the rest were really quite sub-standard.
okok tomorrow's the last day of my hell week of tests. i cant wait. but first, i have to slog through the night cos i just found my computers and technology in a changing society textbook under the pile of rubble. haha. i feel so stupid cos i couldnt remember if i bought the textbook and so i tried finding it this morning but i had no time to search throughly so i went to photocopy three whole chapters of the book, infringing the copyright laws risking getting into trouble with the photocopy shop lady. haha. but oh well. its so loaded with information that i dont know where to start. its something i think only marlon and mike would be able to pass even if they didnt study. and judging from the time i have left there's not much i can cover. so wish me luck.
off i go to study now.
but tonight i wont be alone (: someone cool will be studying with me (haha that's damn lame but peewee made me say that.) and PLUS ive got the olypmics men's 200m finals to accompany me through the lonely night. haha.
remembered this on 11:17 PM
stats today was quite alright. better den i expected. at least i managed to finish the paper on time with a little more to check through the answers. anyway, im supposed to be studying for econs now but i dont know what im doing.
i cannot study anymore. i just cannot. there're too many things going through my head. i keep thinking about everything other den econs. it doesnt matter if you have to lie. all i want is for you to be happy. if you are, i am too. just dont tell me what to do.
i better get down to studying now.
hope all goes well tomorrow.
> when love and hate collide -
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
omg im so tired. did stats the whole day today but im still not sure if im prepared for tomorrow. zz. haha no more olympics for me. that's for being the slacker that ive been for the past week. now i have pay for all the dues.
haha oh i just found out that there's this send message thing on msn that you can just type the person's email and send the person a msn even though they're not on your list. cool huh. haha ok maybe im lagging. but yah. haha.
falling into a bottomless pit of self delusion and being hurt repeatedly by the same person. i really hate this bullshit. what ive been avoiding all along, what i didnt want to happen, is all happening now. can someone put an end to this? please? poor ol' soul.
anyway, i can see the guys having fun gaying on the tag board. but its alright. just do whatever that makes you happy. its always good to be happy.
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
the house was a battlefield this morning so i decided to get out of it as fast as possible. so scary :\ thank God the war was over when i got back.
tennis today was good. im quite sure ive improved since the last time i played. haha. it was fun and it was even better cos we got all three courts to ourselves so denise and i started playing across all three courts. haha. lunch was good too. brownies, salad, snapple, farmer's egg sandwich, a free lemonade and a great conversation (:
i cant seem to remember what i did after that.
hmmmm.
OH. erm after that was nothing of much importance.
happy days like this have been a rare occurance and i dont think they'll be occurring as often as i want them to. but im happy with the way my life is now. so i've got no complains.
its time to be disciplined again. ive gotten back half the motivation i used to have. i wonder how long it'll last and how long it'll take for my world to come crashing down again.
mind games, all mind games. hurl.
its the games you play. too bad its not working this time. you brought it upon yourself. i've been through it. now's your turn. have fun.
for you i will*
remembered this on 12:31 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2004
ok i can finally start studying now that most people have gone off.
lets begin.
haha.
remembered this on 4:24 AM
ohoh i was jes talking to xueying and i remember what i have to say now. yknow, the korean lady who played against leejiawei jes now in the tabletennis match. yes that one. she is highly annoying. she kept making so many weird noises. i bet it was to make ljw scared. its all in the mind. so annoying. like a screaming banshee. erk.
haha ok thats all i have to say.
im waiting.
its back to the olympics.
me : mindless gays
me : all slaves to games
_ : its better than slaves to GIRLS.
rather true. what say you?
remembered this on 3:55 AM
late nights are not at all healthy.
i always thought late night study would be productive cos then noone's online to disturb me. but apparently not. there're like a gazillion people online at this hour of the day. WHY WHY WHY.
i dont know why im updating cos ive got nothing to say.
but FOR YOU I WILL. five times a day. haha.
its the same shit different day thing.
no progress.
i'll be back.
it was the worst day of my life. so going out with ___ kinda cancels it out and makes it so-so.
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