Saturday, October 02, 2004
dear friend,
i just had to write to you to tell you how much i love you and care for you. yesterday, as i saw you walking and laughing with someone new; my sky became cloudy and my tears were rain. i love you. oh, if you'd only listen. i really love you. i try to say it in the quiet of the night in the depths of my heart. i hoped that soon you'd want me to walk along with you, too. so i painted a picture which looked awesome but unrealistic; something i could only dream of. as i watched you fall asleep i wanted so much to touch you, i spilled moonlight into your face - trickling down your cheeks as so many tears have. you didnt even think of me; i waited. you never called;
i just kept on loving you.
remembered this on 1:26 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
i had only one lesson today which barely lasted for 2 hours. all we had to do was listen to her rant for abit and then hand in our presentations in the cd and off we could go. after school was just lunch with marlong, owen, bert (the small boy), gab and mike (: monday lunches are the funniest cos bert looks like he's half dead every monday and owen will keep annoying him but he has no mood to argue back. so he just lies there looking like a sleeping animal. haha. plus candid shots of marlong. those are the ultimate. seriously, marlong is candid shot man of the moment. haha.
after lunch was spent in the library. about three hours trying to digest mathematical solutions and copying corrections for tutorials which were done ages ago. didnt get as much as i'd like to done but it was better den nothing i guess. my classmates are not that bad after all. they can make me laugh. haha. only a small percentage of them are still kinda weird different. anywayyys, after that was all goood even though i had to give up studying and sleep to do the report which i thought was rather interesting. something that i wouldnt mind doing more of and putting more depth into if not for my lethargy and the lack of time which ended in quite slipshod work.
well, i hope its good enough.
and i think/hope its all worth it. please correct me if im wrong.
why does it seem so easy for almost everyone (ok not almost everyone but you get my ideaa, quite a few people) to get over stuff so fast? dont they like have true feelings? haha just a random thought cos ive been noticing people around me change their focus on different people in such a short time span. so, im just wondering. really random. haha.
studying really saps my energy away. i feel so drained now. maybe its the number of brain cells that i used for the report, maybe its the lack of sleep, maybe its just a sign that ive had enough for the day. haha. maybeee.. i think its all three. haha yes allll three. despite the lackadaisical mood im in now, i had an ok morning, a good afternoon and an even better evening. i likeee non-annoying days. happyhappyy* (:
i shall beckon to my bed and wake early to study somemore before heading to school at 5. whoever has tests held at 6pm? ngee ann does. i dont know why also. its not a nice time. just when everyone is leaving school you're going to school to take a test. its like, you'll feel so alone? haha. okkkk. thats enough. off i go.
go forever. i wont miss you.
remembered this on 1:18 AM
Monday, September 27, 2004
wahhh i hate shit like this. sometimes i wish i could just blast her off and tape her mouth so she wouldnt be able to talk. i'll never be able to fanthom the pleasures derived by making people feel bad and making situations worse. no shutup wont you. grrrr.
anyway today was really a waste of time. seriously. i didnt do anyhting productive. ok besides packing my table, getting a long overdued present and ermmm reading three pages of my notes? haha. i had no intention of going out but i ended up going out in the end. oh well. thank God ive still got tomorrow and tuesday to study. but ON THE WHOLE, as i said, sundays are always good days (: tomorrow would have been a day to look forward to, if not for the fact that ive got a test to study for the next day. bahhh.
hurhur. hi love sick man, dont feel like that larhh. i already bought the present for you! cheer upp (:
ok i should get going now. i need sleep, to redeem my bad complexion. sigh.
one more merry month
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
its been awhileeee. i didnt realise that the last time i blogged was so longgg ago. i think its cos ive been too busy. or maybe its cos ive got nothing much to blog about. SSDD. oh well.
super stoned day todayyyy. stayed at home the whole day trying my best to study for stats. ive got four chapters of stuff that i have no idea whats going on to study for. of which ive only covered one. someone please tell me that i'll be able to make it. haha.
haha marlongg, you think you knowwww larhh but YOU HAVE NO IDEAAA (how unpeachy my life is) haha.
why cant you just.
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