when life heads downwards, you start to lose hope. but the good thing about going down the gradient is letting go. when you get go, you tend to have lesser or no expectations and as much as you don't wish to, you fianlly give up. from there, it just goes all the way down to the pits until you hit rockbottom. after that, there's no where else to go but up(i choose to think so). hello darkeness my old friend, i've come to talk with you again, and then there comes misery along with (lots of)tears and sorrow. then you start to void yourself of feelings and emotions hoping things will get better. but the wound inflicted is so sore it just stings so bad when you try to redeem it. the harder you try, the more you fail. all the inconsistent thoughts racing through your mind makes you think if its all worth it. finally, when you get your thoughts sorted out, you decide that its about time the wound should heal and when it finally does, life goes on. but from time to time when you think about your wound and the pain it has inflicted, you mind starts racing again. so then, here we are - back to basics. sick cycle carousel.-
the bane of my existance (not)
manymoremillymonths
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Friday, August 26, 2005